I'll see you on the dark side of the moon...

I feel like I have no concept of the meaning of words right now. All I can hear is this steady hum of the washer and dryer and this crazy racket from some insect outside. It's crazy. I'm absolutely drunken with happiness. It's like I'm seeing everything for the very first time and my brain is on sensory overload. Senses overstimulated. My ears are ringing and it tickles. Who would have thought this is how my life would turn out? I'm glad it did. I like it. I like who I am. I feel like Eric and my mother share alot of the same qualities. Good and bad. It's weird. The same fights I got into with her, I would get into with him. How many times did I scream, "You're just like my mother!" I mean whether I meant it or not it was the bissgest insult I could ever think of, and so many of the thing he did made me think of her. It's actually eerie to think about it really... I need to change my tran of thought. I've been trying to put on music forever. It seems overly complicated today. I remember. I fucking remember everything. I FUCKING REMEMBER! I'm crying I feel so good right now. I remember... and it feels fucking good. The love is overwhelming. Haha talk about being fucked up. I'm high on love man. It's funny because seratonin is what naturally makes all people happy. So technically.. I really am high on HAPPINESS right now. Self-induced happiness.. But it all feels the same to me. I love Pink Floyd. LOVE. Pink. Floyd. Haha. Floyd, is a very funny word. I miss Will terribly. Ahh the blurriness. Jeff is fucking cute. So is Adam. Neither are really my type but I like to flirt with them. It's fun. Jesus. I fucking love Pink Floyd. They take me to a different place. And I totally love that fucking place. I want to learn how to go there again and again on my own. Forever. I completely scare myself sometimes. The lunatic is in my head. I can't believe he really went insane. LSD induced schizophrenia. Damn. He was such a fucking genius. I think in the music world, Dark Side of the Moon is inarguably the greatest album ever written. The lyrics are so dark, it's amost creepy, I think that's why alot of people didn't get them. Except acid heads and real artists. People with more colorful minds. JESUS I FUCKING LOVE IT. I can't stop moving. It feels good to move.. It gives me tingles. TINGLES!!!! Goosebumps.. shiiit man. Shit.